Thoughts of a sub…..

What happens in a boys mind?

What does a boy think of when he is serving his Mistress? This is a complex issue for a boy to discuss, as there is what his Mistress would like to hear, and what he really thinks. Of course what he is sometimes really thinking, he would never dare express to his Mistress, as it often not permitted to express some sentiments.

Naturally when a boy is serving or being used by his Mistress, his primary thoughts are on being a good boy, withholding any reactions he knows his Mistress will not like, ensuring that within the scope of what he is allowed to say, he keeps expressing appreciation to Her, and letting Her know how lucky he is to be serving Her, to be allowed to experience the pleasure that taking pleasure from him, or inflicting pain on him, or humiliating him brings Her.

There are of course always unspoken thoughts. Why do these remain unspoken? Well, there can be many reasons. The boy may be actively working on refining his submission, honing his subservience to Her, and as such it is better to leave it unspoken, as a Mistress takes it for granted that a boy will work on such issues and has better things to do that listen to a boy whining about himself. Another reason might be that it is just plain inappropriate, for example, many boys dream that their Mistress will allow them a release, but most well trained boys understand that this is not to be spoken and is often deemed completely irrelevant to the session. Some Mistresses of course crave to hear Her boys beg.

But these thoughts usually disappear when the boy is well trained, and especially when he reaches sub space, where the only thing he can think of is his Mistress’s pleasure, and pleasing his Mistress. At these times a boy is overwhelmed with submission, with devotion, sometimes with love. He wonders how did all this happen, how did he not only discover his true self, but find himself in his true place in life, kneeling, worshipping at his Mistress’s feet. As She orders and he obeys, or as She just takes or gives what She wants while he is bound with no choice, he is incredulous that he has reached the point in his life where he begs permission to kiss Her feet, how he may never again, in his life cum unless She allows it, where he can probably even count the number of orgasms She will allow him in his life, and how he thanks Her for taking this control over him. As he is thinking all this, he thinks of how most men take it for granted that they will release in any sexual encounter, how most men would never kiss a Woman’s feet before begging permission to massage Her, or do Her housework. But rather than thinking What happened to me, he thinks Thank You Mistress, i will spend my life worshipping You in order to thank You for teaching me my place under Your feet. He will not look at other males with envy, but rather wish that they could learn their real place in life too.

The boy is wondering how his Mistress sees him, has he improved as a pet since the last time he was allowed in Her presence? Is there anything he should bring up the next time he is allowed to talk regarding ideas he might have had to make Her life easier, more comfortable, more pleasurable? He wonders about the activities where he might be holding back, activities he suspects his Mistress would enjoy that much more if he were less inhibited. Can he take just that extra little bit more pain, knowing how much it will please Her to know that he is sacrificing in order to please Her more.

Sometimes a boy might even wonder how life might have turned out if he considered himself equal to the Woman he serves. How different would a vanilla life have been with his Mistress? At such times he has to work hard at holding back a smirk, as Mistress might see the smirk, and without knowing what he is thinking, take it as a sign of contempt, and pity the boy whose Mistress suspects him of such a sin! It is laughable, as a boy knows that he could never be his Mistress’s equal, and he would slowly shrivel and fade if he were in a vanilla life.

When being used by his Mistress, as often as not a boy does little thinking. A bound boy is not often required for his intellectual capacities. More often than not, when he is bound and helpless, or obeying orders, he is not so much thinking but feeling. Feeling the incredibly intense pleasure that complete obedience to his Mistress brings. The feel of Her breath, or the sound of Her breathing. he feels the incredible tension that permeates the silence between each of Her footsteps. he wonders whether it is the sound that is made when his arse is flogged, or the pain of the flogger that hurts more. He wonders whether the next sensation he experiences will be painful or pleasurable. He feels gratitude and devotion to his Mistress. And then he starts thinking again. He thinks How can i ever make up to Her, for being allowed to be in Her presence, to compensate Her for the exhilaration, the sense of ecstatic joy that threatens to entirely overwhelm him. Is there some more work he can do around the house? Can he learn a new skill, improve his massage skills? Take a pedicure course? Should he beg permission to be allowed to enrol in a cooking course so he can better prepare Her favourite cuisine?

When a boy is with his Mistress, he thinks, but more importantly, his Mistress helps him to stop thinking and feel more. And his feelings help him grow as a sub, and enrich his capabilities to empathise with his Mistress’s desires, and to actively pre-empt Her needs, to become pro-active in learning to be a better boy for Her.

Written by : obedient_slave_boi